Saturday, April 26, 2014


What if Keller is right?  ... where the riches I have in this relationship with Jesus are simply inexhaustible - like I'm a billionaire who loses $10.

"What are you going to do?  Are you you going to get all upset?  Are you going to disrupt the rest of your day?  Are you going to the police and demand they search the city for the cabdriver (who you think may have it)?  No, you are going to shrug.  You're a billionaire.  You lost ten dollars.  So what? You are too rich to be concerned about that kind of loss."

What if its true that the criticism I receive, or the investment loss I've experienced, or the unmet expectations I carry, are my $10?  Genuine losses - reputation, wealth, hopes - but miniscule compared to what is truly mine.  

"You are forgetting that the only eyes in the universe that matter see you not as the 'phony little fake' you have sometimes been, but as a person of captivating beauty."

What if the role of the Holy Spirit in my life IS that of the 'second Advocate'?  Where Jesus, as the first Advocate, speaks to God the Father for me... and the Holy Spirit, as the second Advocate, is speaking to me for me. 

"If you're that upset about your status with other people, if you're constantly lashing out at people for hurting your feelings, you might call it a lack of self-control or a lack of self-esteem, and it is.  But more fundamentally, you have lost touch with your identity.  As a Christian, you're a spiritual billionaire and you're wringing your hands over ten dollars.  It's the job of the second Advocate to argue with you in the court of your heart, to make the case about who you are in Christ, to show you that you're rich.  And it's your job to listen."

(see Tim Kellar - Encounters with Jesus - p141, 144-145)

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

In the wake of our launch ...

I've never aspired to start an organisation. My own self-consciousness would typically scream at me to run and hide at the thought. It's not just the logistic and operational challenges that scare me (though they do!), it's the putting of myself out there.

The only way to explain the reason why my wife and I are launching AccessTheStory has been to tell our story. And in the telling of our story comes vulnerability; the wondering if our story is of any value; and the fear of incurring the wrath of the tall-poppy syndrome.

Nonetheless, we set up a series of interactive stations on Saturday night at our launch event, and watched 90 people journey through our story. It was a little harrowing to witness at first, but my self consciousness dissipated - not because of the encouraging turnout, or the encouraging words, or the surprising social media engagement - it was because of one conversation.

A local baptist pastor looked me in the eye as he left and said, "thank-you for telling your story - the questions you have asked of yourself are the ones I've been avoiding. And God has shown me that I need to wrestle with them."

So, here I sit, the morning after one of the most significant weekends in my ministry life - it's been worth pushing through the vulnerability, as it's been replaced with a feeling of overwhelming encouragement by the reminder that God wants to speak through my story.