Love isn't Love

I've said "I love you" so many times to my wife.

Mainly because I just do.

I think she's amazing.

I choose her everyday.

I can't help but join her in celebrating.

I can't help but grieve with her in loss.

BUT.

Sometime I say "I love you" to divert her attention away from my failures.

Sometimes I say "I love you" so I can get what I want.

That's when love isn't love - when it isn't coming out of a place of truth.

And it seems to me that truth cannot be solely found in what I'm feeling at the time.